I never thought
that we would be
together forever
till the end and always.
we met thru a friend
and that started it all
from convo to convo
the more we did fall.
we fell for each other
and soon realized
we would share our life together
forever till we die.
i ve never felt stronger
or ever this way
than the way i feel when you
wake up in my arms each day
you bring joy to my life
i never thought existed
till the very first time
i kissed your sweet lips.
our life will begin
with our simple "I Dos"
together forever
till the end and always.
Lying in your arms
Was a desire I had so longed for
All my life.
When it happened,
I felt so complete in myself
Something I never felt.
You made love to me
Like I had never experiened before
In dreams or reality.
Being able to feel you
Near me,
Toucning me,
On top of me,
Inside of me,
Gave me a sense of devotion and commitment
Never known before.
You made me feel complete
With everything I held within myself
All the secrets and desires longed for.
But now, now
I was finally free of the curse.
The curse of virginity.
"Close Your Eyes"
Close your eyes,
And dream,
Of a place long forgotten,
Where time stops,
And everything is new,
A place were we can be,
Forever in love,
To never have to worry,
Or wonder if it will last,
To never be alone again,
Walking hand in hand,
Along sunny beach lines,
And playing in the rain,
To romantic dinners,
Looking into each others eyes,
Seeing the fire dance in them,
From the warm fireplace,
As we look at our souls,
And know the depth,
Of our love and passion,
Twisting together,
Becoming one,
Then you feel it,
Your waking up,
You fight it with everything,
And as you awake,
You see me fading awa
"Encounter"
As I look into your eyes,
I see a blaze consuming you,
dwelling up inside your very soul
Like a fire that can't be kindled
Or a beast that can't be tamed.
You lunge forth at me,
I think you're going to tear me apart
So I run
I run so fast away from this person,
This person chasing me
I run to the door and can't get out,
And again faster to the next door
It wont' move with me
I scream for my life
For I realize I am trapped
At your mercy and will
I am now yours to use, manipulate, torture and tease
Whatever you do to me, I can no longer stop you
You pull me close you to,
And kiss my neck as I tremble in your
Searching
I 'm trapped in this prison
Cant seem to find my way
Searching among the havoc
I surpass through day by day
Hoping my eyes will let me see
Just one glimpse of the sun
Inside this dark and hollow world
I ve lived in way too long
Finding my way to the surface
Praying that I'd soon find
The reason for my breath each day
And dreams I ve dreamed through nights
As I look in and out of places
I lose the hope once had
For you were no where I could find
Lord did you hear my prayer?
I turn around and face the world,
And watch the sun descend,
Tomorrows just another day
For me to search again..
Dreams
Lying here in bed,
My mind and heart wonders,
As my eyes close and I fall away
I do not wish to be disturbed
I toss and turn as my mind wonders to you.
Longing to be with you,
Wanting to feel you next to me.
Caressing me with your hands,
Up the bare of my back
Feeling you, touching forbidden places
Where one has never touched before.
I lie here at your mercy
Wanting to feel you deep inside of me
The passion blazes from my eyes to yours
The heat between the two of us is exhilarating
The sweat from both bodies drips onto the floor.
Feeling you tremble inside of me was the greatest feeling I had
Begging you and asking
Suicidal Forgiveness
I long to have you in my life again
When you left me here in this dark world
To fend for myself
I didn't know what I was going to do.
How could you do that to me?
The pain I feel as the days go by,
Gets stronger every year,
I miss you so.
When I graduated high school,
You weren't there.
When I left for college,
I wanted you with me.
My teenage years are almost behind me,
You missed out on my life,
Why? Why? Why?
You didn't have to leave me,
Things could have worked out,
I wished you would have talked to me,
Before you ruined your life and mine
Taking your life has tormented me for years now
Having n
"The Knight"
In the dark I bow my head,
Awaiting the call,
To once more come out of the dark,
Allowing my armor to shine,
To raise my sword high,
With a steady hand,
Never to let it down,
Through all the blows and hits,
I never lose my ground,
Til the battle is won.
As the the blows come harder,
And I feel I can't go on,
I start to hear the praises,
Of ones that called before,
Cheering me on in battle,
Giving me the strength to go on.
Soon the last blow comes,
Though battered and tired,
I stand firm with honor,
And as the smoke clears,
It turns calm and dead.
As I turn to leave once again,
I hear the praise of man
Waking up in your arms
was the sweetest feeling felt outside of myself
having you touch me
fingers to face
then to my lips,
was something often thought of,
not forgotten.
Being able to close my eyes,
then reopen them,
knowing you were still there
and not a dream,
gave me security in which I have never known.
You are my all.
You are my everything.
Thru all sickness and health
for our rich and poor times,
I give myself to you,
to be your one,
your true love,
in all ordeals we shall passby and overcome,
we will be one anothers all.
panic stricken
and pacing around the room
she suddenly falls to her knees
not able to bear this evil presence surrounding her
she closes her eyes and begins to pray
the presence begins to move closer
and she starts to show her fears
she realizes that something intense is about to take place
so she clinches her teeth to await the pain.
but then her mind begins to wonder, back to years before
when she was protected by her innocence,
naive to the ways of the world.
The first hit throws her back into conciousness
but staying strong she ponders on
the evil that she now knew of,
was different in days before.
this evil, in fact
closing my eyes
brings allusions my way
thinking of uncontrollable things
like the way you were with me
holding me tightly,
pressing you lips to mine
and the rhythm of our bodies
joining in unity.
having every sensation of your body on mine
was something i never got over
the way you would move with me,
front and back
side to side
excited me in so many ways.
"Do it again", i would beg
but i couldn't take all you had to give.
you made me feel, how i should feel
then left me here
alone and cold,
in the room where we first moved.
but in my mind, you shall stay
along with thoughts of things yesterday
until the moment
we mee
lightening now flashing
thru my dark lonely room
thoughts on my mind
reflect back to you
the way that you held me
close in your arms
carassed my whole body
with all your sweet charm
made me your woman
in only one night
thoughts of our bodies
now fade from my sight
wanting to feel you
inside me again
tell me this isnt'
a dream once again
staying asleep
i could no longer do
for it was now morning
there's things i must do
hurrying about
my long list of chores
till i can come home
and never be bored.
Current Residence: Pensacola, Florida Favourite genre of music: All kinds, mostly rock Favourite photographer: myself, but you guys havent seen my work yet. Favourite style of art: anything voyager makes Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: Real Player Shell of choice: one that i can hear the ocean thru???lol Wallpaper of choice: Anything that catches my eye. Skin of choice: my own skin, with someone elses up against me. ;) Favourite cartoon character: Pooh Bear Personal Quote: Every choice comes with consequences, and with consequences come more choices.
Well as most of you know. Im not getting married for a long long long long long long time. I think that it's best for me to play the field a while and wait on the right man to come along. Well such is life. Im sure he's out there somewhere. Eh somewhere..LOL ;)
Yes! How many are actually shocked that Im still alive? Well, I am doing absolutely wonderful. I have been so busy lately getting my life back together in NC. As many of you know, I had moved to Pensacola, Florida. Well needless to say I got involved in a relationship with a man that was completely different that me. I am the type of person that shows my feelings and dont hide my emotions. This man was completely different. He basically made me feel like I was completely stupid and being around him made me hate myself more and more each day. I finally opened my eyes after I had let myself sink into a state of depression I could barely pull ou